It’s October!
Which is only the best month out of the year AND it’s my BIRTHDAY month!!!! Okay, truthfully not that excited for my birthday…it seems to sneak up on me faster and faster each year! I’m only turning 31, which I now (meaning since I turned 25) think is still quite young (in my early 20’s anything after 30 I thought was knocking on deaths door…funny how those perspectives change). At 31, I have a beautiful family consisting of my wonderful husband and two very active boys. I have a great career which is allowing me to provide very well for my family and even though my family and friends from my youth are all still in Florida I have managed to maintain healthy and thriving relationships. I would say without a doubt that I have been pretty damn blessed.
It’s really crazy but with how busy we are
most of my daily thoughts revolve around…
who’s got practice tonight?or shit…did I wash that uniform?
or did I really just schedule these two conference calls back to back?
or a personal favorite…when did that gas light come on? Wonder if I can make it home from Atlanta before I have to stop, followed by my most prayed prayer “Please God let there be no traffic so I don’t run out of gas in the ghetto”.
But here lately…and maybe it’s due to this
upcoming birthday but especially in the mornings when it’s still pitch dark out
and the clock only reads: 5:45 am (which
is the most God awful hour to be awake, let alone driving) and the hectic
thoughts of the day have not yet started flowing do I find myself thinking back
through childhood memories. It seems to be completely involuntary and I really
don’t notice I’m doing it. Now, my memory is spotty at best and there are big
lapses in time that unfortunately are just gone but it’s funny how it’s the
little things that I seem to remember most. The things that at the time seem so
insignificant but that for some reason have left such a mark in my memory.
For instance, I don’t remember my high school
graduation (I know it happen…I’ve seen
the photos) but I remember at the start of 10th grade having a conversation
with my Pop. I have no memory of how truly long the conversation was, in
reality it could have only been about 30 minutes long, but it felt like it was
a lot longer than that. I remember explaining to him my grand scheme and
everything I wanted to do after high school, after college…I remember him very
clearly saying to me “That is great, but
don’t be afraid to change and sometimes you just got to fake it until you make
it. Things rarely ever go according to plan. But I know whatever you do it will
be great because you are a resourceful person”. Which at the time I
remember thinking “Yeah. Ok Pop. I got
this and everything is going to go as planned because I said so.” Wow. Was
I naïve or what!?!? Needless to say, I am not in the career field I thought I
would be and I didn’t even finish college. BUT I have always remembered him telling
me to “fake it before I make it” and
it has pushed me through my current career to move forward, even if I didn’t
know what the hell I was doing at first, it reminded me to get resourceful and
figure it out, do it well and ultimately advance.
Funny how certain things can shape you in a way.
I guess the older you get the clearer your life lessons become and how it seems
each moment whether remembered or not has had some sort of impact even if it is
of the smallest measure.
Now it’s onto the celebrating of another year
behind me of this busy, loving, challenging, fun life! As a plus, this year my
birthday will fall during our cruise so I will be celebrating out in the open
ocean in the middle of nowhere on a boat full of 2,000 strangers…lol good
times! But seriously…the best gift I can give myself is to slow myself down…if
even for a day. Not overthink anything, not have a strict schedule to follow, just
to go with the flow and relax.
Signing off until after we get back from the cruise…because
between packing, wrapping up work items and last minute plans I am sure I will
have no time again to blog. Aruba, Curacao and Grand Turk…here come the Harris family!
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